A new year is here. With it comes endless possibilities, new hopes, new dreams and goals... new paths for us to follow, or ignore. We will make new friends, and lose some. We might discover the true meaning of love, or learn to hate. 365 days to make your life a living hell, or pure bliss. What ever it may be, 2006 is here.

I recently lost someone I truly cared for. She is now in a better place, and even though every day I wake up and struggle to get out of bed, I am moving on, slowly. I truly wish I could just stay here in my misery, in my dytopic atmoshpere that holds no future for me. I somehow wish I could maybe have changed things in the past, maybe she would still be here today, but what is done is done and 2006 is here. I can't live blaming myself.

All I can say is that she will remain in my heart for the rest of my life, no matter where I go, no matter what I do. Even if I learn to love another, she will always be my first, my one true love. And with that, I pick myself up, I move out of this dark garden of lost souls, this place that I have forced myself into. The torture I have indured is self inflicted, only because I feel guilty for not saying goodbye, for telling her I loved her, for stopping her. For this, I am bound to my grief, and it is here that my heart will remain, below the swinging branches of the willow tree of life. And like the sands of time, my soul will fade away, till the long hours of my life are utterly spent waiting for happiness.

Happy 2006 everyone. May we all learn to appreciate what we have before it is too late.